Be gentle with me today. My heart is tender, my soul is tired, and my spirit is weary.
I love my children, I miss my son, I wish I could hold on to these tender and increasingly rare moments we have together.
So many times in the past I felt melancholy, bitter sweet, because that particular moment was so precious, everything was so very right, I wanted to hold on to it. I knew I would miss it when it was gone.
I was right.
I miss having that little baby look up at me while he nursed.
I miss having that little hand holding tight to mine as he practiced walking.
I miss watching him learn, seeing the light of discovery in his face.
I miss listening to his ideas and plans, however impossible and impractical.
I miss that time when we were all everything to each other.
Thursday, September 8, 2016
- Hillbilly Elegy, by J.D. Vance
- A Bolt from the Blue, by Jennifer Woodlief
- Governance and Ministry, by Dan Hotchkiss
I highly recommend Hillbilly Elegy to anyone interested in the current political climate, class issues, or just a really good memoir. There was much in this writer's experience that mirrored mine, despite his being a white "hillbilly" and me being a little brown Latina.
A Bolt from the Blue was a quick read, a book group book, one of those that I would have never read on my own.
Governance and Ministry, well that was just work. Useful work, but work.