Today is my kids' first day of school. Ever. For many parents that would be bittersweet.
For me, it's just bitter.
I am not the mom you see counting down the days until the kids go back to school on facebook. I love homeschooling. I love being surrounded by my family. I love hearing my kids plan, and play, and chortle as they come up with their various shenanigans. I love how easy and free their learning is. I miss them when they're away, even while I love hearing about their independent experiences.
I am getting quite worked up about this. I don't know why. This isn't even real school, just a one day a week enrichment program. A friend wrote to tell me to say "I hope that you are able to have some restful down time while they are gone" Ha! I will be spending my morning at doctors' offices. Which is part of why I signed them up for this. It gives them something to do, and a safe place to be, at the same time it gives me a predictable day for scheduling the many appointments my health requires right now.
I spent this morning, as I sent them off with Firelord, being cheerful, sending them off with a "Have fun! I can't wait to hear all about it" attitude, even while having my doubts about how it's going to go for them. Hot Dog got a call last night from a friend (who will also be there) to talk strategies for staying out of the principal's office. That set Hot Dog off in to wails of "I don't want to go to school!" because he had no idea it would be so hard to stay out of trouble with the (apparently) terrifying principal. (I've met her, she actually seemed pretty normal.) Lego Kid is nervous about the whole thing, and at the age when sleeping in is becoming more necessary physiologically. Getting up this morning wasn't easy. A strong introvert, Lego Kid needs a lot of alone and quiet time to feel stable. Being in a classroom all day with other kids may be a challenge. Bit Boy is the one that1 day a week may be insufficient for. At 14 he is feeling the need to stretch his legs and spread his wings. He's ready for some independence from his family, even if he isn't ready to do what someone else tells him all day. But he too likes to sleep in, and like his brothers, is used to having lots of time for his own projects.
Well, we'll just have to see how today goes for them. As for me, I'm back from my little surgery and going to bed for a bit.
All the boys had a fine day at their enrichment program.
On a scale of 1-10: Hot Dog rated it a 9, Lego Kid gave it a 7, and Bit Boy an 8.
All are back today, after only a minor bit of whining from Lego Kid who last night called it the "enragement" program, and whined about having to get out of bed before 8 am.
I have been able to get some appointments in, like the 2 radiation treatments I have today. So, so far, it's a win/win. Or at least an acceptable draw.